I remember those moments; not because they were important but because you were there.
Dear Sam,
I find it funny that you were the reason why I got out of bed every morning. You were the one thing that made me want to face the world of hate. You were the reason why I struggled so hard in school just so I could get out of class just to have the brief moment of walking with you across the hall. I find it funny how I look back at all those memories and all those times that we had together over by the fence on the ground our backs to the wall sharing a pack of cigarettes and just talking about life. I miss those moments. I miss your flaws. I miss how your hand fit perfectly in mine. And then I realize that you and I have changed. And I’m learning to be okay with that.
Love always,
Charlie.
I guess if I love you, I should let you move on.
Anonymous asked:
Dear Charlie, I'm so tired of feeling invisible to other people. I'm really shy and it takes a while for me to be comfortable with other people and it just sucks, because I moved ( it's almost been a year now, sadly) and I feel like I can't connect with anyone. Like I talk to people, but I always get left out by them. It just makes me feel like I'm not worth getting to know. I don't want to just be some guy, ya know?
Dear friend,
I know how this is too. Some people only care for the story and not the person behind the story. I am glad that you are telling me your story, and I want you to know that I care for you. So thank you for telling me. I want you to know that you are so amazing and so great. You seem like such a cool guy, I wish I had a friend like you. I always seem to make friends with some of the deepest people on the internet. It sort of sucks when you have better friends on the internet than with people in real life. What I have noticed is that people in real life are so busy with themselves and what’s going on in their own life that they can be pretty blind when it comes to other people, like you and I.
I myself have moved around a bit and I never really fit it in with anyone. I was always that weird kid that people didn’t like, so I made them like me and did ridiculous things and lost who I was as a person. I hope you never try to conform because let me tell you, its not worth it. Be who you are and if people judge you for that then they aren’t worth your time. If they don’t want to talk to you thats their fault for missing out on a great guy. And I do believe that you are a great guy. Not just some guy. You are you. You ARE worth getting to know. If you feel ignored by people then maybe talk to them or find a new group of friends or something. I know that’s hard. But sometimes even though it sucks, we have to be the ones to make the first move. Please don’t feel invisible. I see you. Its okay to be shy. Sometimes they shiest of people are the best people. Its okay if it takes a while to get comfortable, its not a bad thing. Don’t give up on yourself.
You have a lot to offer people.
Love always,
Charlie.
Anonymous asked:
Dear Charlie, my (ex)boyfriend is moving in a few weeks. He got a job across the country and he told me that he thought it would be for the best if we tried to be "just friends" until he left because it would hurt too much otherwise. I told him I couldn't do that; I couldn't pretend I wanted to be just friends when we both wanted so much more. I walked out and haven't seen him or spoken to him in weeks. I see a future with him, but I have no idea what to do, since long distance isn't an option.
Dear friend,
Well, when it comes to distance that’s when every relationship - whether it be friendships or dating relationships - is put to the test. I am sorry that he’s moving…. I know it’s hard right now. I’ve had to say goodbye to someone I love who lives far away too and it’s not easy. Its never easy…. but sometimes what helped me get through it was this, it was good for them. It benefited them leaving. If he needed to leave then that’s what was best for him. Its a pity, but it seems to happen quite a bit where work overrules relationships. I know how that feels to feel like your heart is caving in when you hear, “I think we should just be friends.” Its total and excuse my language but sometimes a swear word is needed - bullshit- to just have this long history with someone and have them leave. I’m so sorry that you’re going through that. I honestly wish I could help you in that way and give you a hug but I can’t. I suggest taking his suggestion and just being his friend. I know its hard, but it sounds like he just needs his friend because it affects him, too, unfortunately. :/ having to move somewhere far away from people he knows well. If its too hard for you then perhaps write him a letter to express your feelings to him. But I do suggest just being his friend. Sometimes that’s all you can really give a person.
Love always,
Charlie.
Anonymous asked:
dear Charlie, I loved a boy and we were perfect. He broke my heart and now he is with my best friend. I feel sick when I see them and it breaks my heart.
Dear friend,
I fell in love with my best friend. He broke my heart and fell in love with my other best friend. I can relate. I am so sorry that you have to feel the heartbreak. I would never wish what I feel when I think about it on my worst enemy. Its the worst… I want you to know something: You are so beautiful. Why wouldn’t someone want to be with you? Honestly you are so brave just for telling me this. I am so proud of you and someone else will be proud of you also. Please don’t feel like you won’t have the chance to love someone else because, right now, I know its hard. It really is. I’m still there, but it does get better. The pain does lessen and somewhere along the way… you figure out that you were better without them. If they’re not willing to see how great you are now they don’t deserve you. I believe in you. You are so strong. Please don’t forget that. I’m sorry that your hearts breaking. I wish I could give you a hug, but I guess just kind words will have to do. If you need anything, I’m here for you.
Love always,
Charlie.
Anonymous asked:
dear Charlie, I've always been insecure of myself. I have this really bad acne marks in my arms and back for years (for psychological reasons, as my psychologist said a while ago). you can always see me wearing long sleeves, even if it's summer and it's hot outside. I'm very insecure of these marks and this insecurity ends up showing in my arms... it's a cycle! I also feel like I'm not good enough for anybody... I feel horrible. what advice can you give me? thanks for your time Charlie
Dear friend,
I can relate. I have many burn scars from when I burned myself. I used to think they were cool but now I am very self conscious about it. I also had really bad acne and didn’t care for it so now I have a few scars from that too. It’s awful, isn’t it? :/ I know what that’s like to wear long sleeves in the summer. Where I live it is extremely hot in the summer. I am sorry that you’re so insecure about it. I suggest perhaps seeing what you can do about it. Maybe talk to your psychologist about it. That way you don’t have to feel so insecure about your arms which i can imagine are lovely. I don’t believe you; you ARE good enough for someone. Everyone is. It might take a while but IT WILL happen. I promise you. You should never feel horrible about yourself. It makes me so sad. You’re so beautiful. Please don’t give up on yourself. Don’t cut yourself short.
Love always,
Charlie.
Anonymous asked:
Charlie, I'm 18 and my parents never let me do anything. I wanted to go to a mall that was 1.5 hrs away with my friends but they said no, so I suggested on that was only half an hour away, but they still said no. They say they don't want me going that far away. I don't get it. I'm a good kid and I get straight As. But still, I'm almost never allowed to hang out with my friends or go anywhere that isn't one of the two neighboring towns. I don't know what to do. I feel so trapped.
Dear friend,
Well being eighteen they can only give you suggestions they can’t have that hold over you anymore. Though they are STILL your parents you should respect their decision, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be locked up in your room. If you feel like they’re being too protective then I suggest sitting them down and talking about it. I know I always say talking about things but it’s true. If you communicate it could make a world of a difference. My parents didn’t care what I did when I was a younger teen they didn’t have any control over me. Its good that your parents seem like they care. I can imagine you are a good kid. You seem like one, and I’m proud of you. If you feel trapped, like I said talk to them. They might surprise you.
Love always,
Charlie.
Perks
I never explain how much this book means to me. Everyone knows me here by Charlie. It is such an honor to be called Charlie. I feel like he is a part of me in everything he does. He is honest and he is so broken and relatable. That’s how I was too. When I was a early teen I was excited for highschool. From everyone I knew growing up they said highschool was the time of their life and I wanted that. I wanted to feel that only to come to terms that it’s not the time of your life. It’s difficult and sometimes worth it. Though I’d never go back. Perks, though, was a book I picked up in ninth grade I read it and reread it throughout all my years in highschool and it was sort of like the book I went to for… Everything. Bad day? Perks. Good day? Perks. If my parents were yelling at me disappointed in my I fled to Perks. Somehow the book made me feel better. When I say that this book saved my life I mean it. I used to be like Charlie when he was a boy. I never was a “normal” kid I always had my head in the clouds and they thought something was wrong with me. I guess everytime I acted normal they silently praised. Though I have more of a scarier past than Charlie, he had his own reasons to be depressed. I do think of Charlie as a real person because he is in so many people. He means so much to numerous people. He… Is me. I never talk about my love for the book. I am always scared it would take the specialness from the book, but I just found my copy at the bottom of my bag. I started to look through it at all the things I’ve highlighted and wrote in. The book is abused, but that’s what makes it beautiful. That means it was a good book. More than that, a life saver.
Love always,
Charlie.
Just to let you know, I believed in you when no one else did.